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之前一直想分享我在wordpress所写的东西,可现在想想,好像也不应该,要也是写一些中文的东西,分享在这里,始终两个地方还是有不同啊。

Him

Him
You are always thinking about him.
It seems like you cannot stop thinking about him no matter what.
I really hope one day you can stop.
Because I want you to just focus on your life.
Please be happy.
Although you always wanted to make him come back.
But really....
I don't think it's worth it.
Do you really think he will think about you till now?
I don't believe in him.
I know you believe in him.
But I'm sure in your inner heart,
You don't believe.
But you just don't want to accept the truth.
Or maybe you don't really know what you are even thinking about.
Sometimes your feelings can betray you.
Sometimes you have to use your brain to think.
Sometimes you have to be calm and clear minded.
Question about him,
Like how you help other people to question their guy.
Do you really trust him?
100%?
If he want to come back,
He should have come back by now.
And apologize,
Beg you to come back to him.
He leave you for your own good?
Maybe it's true?
But maybe it is just an excuse to break up with you.
I'm just as busybody as I am.

But
I hope one day you can find a better guy,
Who won't leave you forever.
And you may love the guy even more deeper.
And stay with him forever happily ever after.
Even if you never met one,
Sometimes it is better be alone,
Than wait for a guy who don't deserve it.

Dedicated to Jia :3 my secret friend :)

What is Love?

What is Love?

I don't know

I have never experience love before

I have never had a boyfriend before

Nobody confess to me

Is there even a person who like me?

I wonder if I will be single for the rest of my life?

How does it feels to fall in love?

I wonder if I will become a very cheerful person once I fall in love.

Will I smile to myself whenever I think about him?


Some says that :

  • Your heart beat will increase when you think about him

  • You will feel jealous when he talk to other girls

  • Whenever you think about him, you will smile to yourself without knowing it

  • No matter when and where, you will always miss him

  • You will feel very sad to be separated from him

  • When he is sad, you will be sad too

  • You wish that he will be by your side for almost 24/7

  • You will get hurt when he said something that hurts you

  • You will be either angry or disappointed, when he forget about important dates with you, important anniversaries, important things about you.

  • You will be so happy when he remembered everything about you(your birthdays, your favourite colours, what you like to eat and don't like to eat)

  • You will always persuade yourself to trust him when he lies to you or when you found that  he is with other girls


I'm know only some of this is only true for some people.

And I know I may have left out some points, because I really never experience before the feelings of falling in love, so things that I know will be limited.

But I do know what is right what is wrong.

If me, I hope I will be clear minded towards my future boyfriend.

I will still love him, treat him the way that he deserves, spend time with him, do many things with him.

But I don't want to lose my pride because of him.

If he treat me badly, if he betrayed me, if he don't care about my feelings but only care about his own feelings.

Then he is OUT!

I don't want to get hurt and lose my pride for some unworthy person.

Even if I will feel sad to leave him, I will still leave, I want to treat myself better.

你要先懂得爱自己,别人才会爱你。

You have to know how to love yourself first, before wanting someone to love you.

So that even if nobody loves you, you still have YOU to love yourself.

Learn to let go 学会放下

You don't have to learn to forget,

You just have to learn to let go.

Forget is impossible

And you don't have to forget any of the memories,

Remember the happy memories, they are precious. But they will only stay in your memories.

Don't be stubborn, you still have to go on with your life.

Learn to let go.

One day create your own happy memories, happiness that only belongs to you.

Learn to let go.

So that you can set yourself free from all the tortures and unhappiness.

And one day you will realize that life is like that, there will be happy, sad, angry in your life.

We cannot avoid it.

So why not we accept it and let go of the pains.

Sometimes not that we cannot let go, but is we ourselves don't want to let go, is we ourselves that make us suffer from pains.
And one day you think back, those are some happy memories, even sad memories that let you become more mature and understand more about life and love.

They are part of your life.


Don't ever give up.



But learn to let go.

Even if you will still feel pain in your heart,

Don't worry, the pain will go away slowly

Even if there's still scars in your heart.

But that's also something that can make you become even more stronger.

Accept the scars as your own.

It is all of your life experiences.

And your life are meaningful.

Whether you will suffer or not, it all depends on your mindset

depends on YOU.

Words for GIRLS 给女孩的一些话

Find

Someone

Who really love you

Who will stay by your side forever

Who can give you a simple happiness

Who really knows what you like and what you don't like

& not someone who claims that he love you more than you know and yet leave you alone heart broken

Find

Someone who really treat you well

Not someone who make you sad, heart broken, disappointed, unhappy

Not someone who will make you cry

Not someone who will blame you for everything

Not someone who don't even care whether you are unhappy or not

Not someone who treat you like a trash


Find someone who can give you small simple happiness and it is enough

Find someone that you can really be happy with


TRUE happiness is find a guy who really loves you and care about you, and not find a guy that you love a lot but yet leave you alone heart broken.


A good guy do not need to have high education

A good guy do not need to be romantic, rich or clever.

But someone who really love you, treats you well and care about you.


Maybe there's one around you? But you never notice it.


I wish everybody can find your true happiness.


PS. I know I have repeated some points, but because it is really very important. So I want to emphasise it.

Definition of a friend

To ME

FRIEND IS

Someone you can depend on

Someone who will accompany you after you have being dumped by your loved ones.

Someone who will be there for you when you are being bullied or hurt

Someone who can say anything to you, even if it is just some random thing

Someone who will be with you when you are sad

Someone who will do crazy things with you

Someone who will sing with you

If you are still single when you grow old, they will be there for you so that you don't feel lonely.

But to say the truth, some of this is really a bit impossible. Especially if your friend get married in the future, they will have their own life and family to care about. For now we are busy with our studies, and in the future we will be busy with our career. So we won't have much time to be together.

The reason why I don't really want to make a lot of friends, because I will feel more lonely in a bigger cliques, it is tiring and stress and normally not everybody in the clique want to be friend with you. There will be times like, you are only close with one or a few people in the clique. Because a clique doesn't mean every members are friends with each other, some of them may have not talk to each other even once…

I rather have closer and true friends.

And I don't like to go out, I hate crowds, so I like to stay at home, staying in my own small world. Because I feel more relax and content. Except when I want to go shopping, then I don't mind. And if I want to go take photos of some tourists attractions and nice places, I'm actually quite happy.

So if my friend ask me out just for eating, sorry, rejected. But if come to your house is ok, depend on which friend is it.

If I'm around when my friend get bullied, I may help her argue back. There's once I help one of my primary school friend which we have not contacted each other anymore. We are helping out at a charity booth selling things. And one guy wanted to take one item away without paying for it. I think my friend wanted to stop him, and got kick by him. And I got angry and don't let him get away with the item, I even shouted at him in front of many students. He is a junior and dare to come and bully seniors, I really got pissed off sia. 

-_- I forgot the outcome, I think he return the item back? He dare not return, I'm sure I will drag him and not let him go until he return.

That's also an action of protecting a friend. 

So

What is friend to you?

Feelings

I wonder how it feels to fall in love.

how it feels to have a heart break

how it feels to feel loved

how it feels to finish all your wishes

how it feels to get betrayed

how it feels when everybody around you left

how it feels when you get ignored

how it feels to be lonely

or maybe I have already experience loneliness

how it feels when you are going to die

WE WILL KNOW IT ONLY IF WE EXPERIENCE IT

Sarcastic



If I'm being sarcastic to you, it's a good thing.

Why?

Because it means that I'm comfortable being friend with you. If I don't dare to be sarcastic to you, means we are still not that close. Especially when I don't talk much to you. Normally if I'm able to talk a lot to you, also means that I have treated you as a friend.

Not everybody can be friends.

I make friends according to my feeling.

Even if you are friendly, doesn't mean that everybody will be your friend.

And I don't want to have normal friends, because I don't really feel comfortable and happy about it. I rather have a best or close friend, whom I can play around, laugh, gossip with. And someone whom I am comfortable to talk to and tell secrets……

I'M NOT SHY/QUIET/OBEDIENT, IT IS JUST MY AUTO PROTECTIVE MASK IN FRONT OF PEOPLE.

Because I won't be shy/quiet/obedient in front of my best friends. I have different personality in front of different people……

新加坡小印度发生暴动

新加坡小印度昨晚突然发生暴动,会不会以后又有啊?好可怕。。。总共有400个暴民呢。。。要用到300个警察才够啊,要是以后又发生,而且人数更多的话,是不是连那些阿兵哥也要出来解决这个暴乱啊。。。但幸好昨天有解决。。。如果再发生,我觉得会有更多人参与吧。。。而且暴民好像都是外国人啊。。。这些暴民好像都不是新加坡人。。。幸好。。。幸好我们新加坡人还是算乖的,不会乱来。。。自从有很多新移民还有国外的工人进来新加坡之后,就发生这么多事情。现在连我也觉得是不是不应该有太多外国人移民到新加坡啊。。。还有是不是有太多外国的工人了啊。。。好怕哪一天新加坡的新移民会比真正的新加坡人的人数来得多啊。。。而且怎么可能因为一场车祸而引起这么严重的暴动呢?400个暴民呢!很多人啊!还是他们有什么动机吗。。。该不会想把新加坡变成一个不安全的地方吧。。。所以我说我只喜欢新加坡,至少新加坡安全。。。气死了啦。。。我以前不会觉得有太多新移民或是外国工人会怎么样,可是他们现在在我们这边闹事啊,我怎么可能不生气!!!

侮辱人的网友们

今天又看到有网友在骂人,而且说的都是侮辱人的话,像是“slut, porn”,还有更多难听的话,根本是想气死人,说这么伤人的话,这种网友根本就是没良心的人。。。我刚刚在Instagram举报了一个网友,当然她不知道被我举报了,因为她太过分了,我看我的偶像很多照片都被她评论超级糟糕,而且都是在侮辱人的话,这种人就该被举报。。。。只是不知道Instagram几时才会处理。。。。真希望有更多人去举报她,就我一个举报可能没有用。她有可能继续侮辱更多的人呢。。。。看了心情就不好,虽然不是侮辱自己。。。

游泳

很不想学游泳。。。。我们最近体育课是游泳课,真糟啊,因为认为学不来,所以就不想学。。。

老实说其实是因为有很多同学在,所以觉得丢脸啦。是有那么想学会啦,可是周围的人一直给压力,所以就会紧张,我就算想学会也难啦。。。

Kana:

世界上总是有很多无奈,但最可悲的莫过于,当一大波无奈向你袭来时,你还不得不去承受它,比如必须学微积分,必须参加微积分考试,挂科了就必须补考,再比如由于时间方位的限制,一项计划已久的旅行无法成行,再比如饭必须吃要不然就会饿死…这些无奈,都是你必须承认并接受的,即使你心里再怎么不情愿,再怎么百般挣扎,再怎么不愿向现实妥协,无奈就是无奈。所以,认命吧少女,别做白日梦了,大哭一场也好,哭累了睡着了,醒来的时候,新的一天就到来了,又必须无奈地迈出新的一步,没有人会等你,只有靠自己努力追赶,才能摆脱昔日的无奈。然而,在前进的道路上,还是会有很多无奈等着你去面对。就这么周而复始地循环下去,心境自然就会开阔,自然就会学会如何面对这些无奈。现在就迈出面对无奈的第一步,看微积分去吧。

鬼屋 - Trials of Horror



昨晚去了我家附近的鬼屋,总共有2间鬼屋。第一间The Haunting等超久的,差不多等了1个小时30分钟多,我都快尿急了。好不容易进去了出来,就马上去厕所了,然后再赶回来排第二间鬼屋The Dead Epilogue,谁知到第二间这么快,没排太久(跟第一间比的话)就可以进去了。出来了呢,去看他们卖些什么东西,那些万圣节的东西已经给别人买走了,不然我也买一个回家了。。。老实说这些鬼屋不可怕,如果要跟超大型鬼屋比的话,自然没那么可怕。。。可怕的地方就是,那些鬼的声音和突然出现在你眼前的那一刻,还有有些鬼会往你的方向过来(用爬的,不然用走的),如果胆子小是会被吓到啦,我一直捂着耳朵呢,呵呵,所以不会被吓得太惨,反而我周围的人会喊。。。而且里面太暗了,你根本看不到他们的脸,所以就算他们的妆再可怕,你也看不到,所以不会被吓到。

PS:都是真人扮的鬼

几年前去过一个·Escape Theme Park的鬼屋 @ Downtown East,那时候是第一次去鬼屋,那个鬼屋稍微比这个鬼屋可怕,虽然全都是道具,不是真人扮的。为什么可怕是因为,每当你到一个部分都会有很可怕且又大声的音效来吓你,超大声的,想吓死人啊。然后尤其看到那些道具会动,你自然也会怕(如果你第一次去的话啦)。

以后有钱的话想去,Universal Studio Halloween Horror Nights, Sentosa Spooktacular,Bugis Street Halloween Event,Race The Dead @ Sentosa,Fright Nites @ Sentosa 4D Adventureland,Museum of Horrors @ SCAPE,有一些可能以后会没有,希望有啦,这样我就可以去体验体验。。。

百分百的好老师

我所遇到过的老师,老实说,没有一个是百分百的好老师。他们总是认为他们要很凶才可以让学生听话,可我不这么觉得。因为你反而是让学生对你更反感。尤其是有些老师出口伤人呢!就算你们是老师,你们也没资格去侮辱学生。想一想,你们对我们来说是长辈,你们的经验比我们多,对你们来说我们算是不成熟且经验很少的少男少女。既然我们的经验少,那你们就应该教我们,而不是第一天来教课,就已经在那边骂我们了。你们如果连一点机会都不给,就直接判我们死刑,那你们还能算是好老师吗?有什么学生会心服口服的?你们从不问我们原因。你们总是要我们站在别人的立场想,但你们又曾几何时站在我们的立场想一想。你们自己以前也是经历过同样的事情的不是吗?老师需要尊重,学生也需要。因为有事老师心情不好,也是会对学生发脾气,这真的很不对,他们不是你们的出气筒。

有一个艺人以前也是个坏学生,很多老师都放弃她,都叫她直接放弃学业,以后不可能有前途。可是却又那么一个女老师没有放弃她,反而一直鼓励她,让我很敬佩。如果你从来没有努力教好学生,那你就没资格怪他们。

有时候学生学坏,有很多原因。你们从不试着了解他们的状况,就直接说他们是没家教,说他们没努力,说他们人格有问题,说是他们的天性。你们的这种行为反而让他们变本加厉,更加不听任何人的话,因为没有人支持他们,他们想要的夸奖,想要的鼓励你们都不给,那他们还做好学生来干嘛?

父母有错,老师有错,社会也有错。只知道批评,却从来没有从他们的立场想。遭殃永远都是小孩子和年轻人。

一个每天脸黑黑,只会贬低学生,惩罚学生,一直对学生发脾气,伤学生的自尊心的老师是最糟糕的老师了。

一个很温暖,一直鼓励学生的老师,不需要凶或者批评也可以让学生心服口服的听你的话还有喜欢你,还有真心的对学生好,我觉得才是最好的老师。。。。

《兰陵王》 原创小说

新加坡的书店Kinokuniya已经有卖《兰陵王》的原创小说了!!!还有影集呢!!!好想买啊!!!!可是现在没钱买,要是我的妈妈肯卖给我就好了!!!可能之后有钱买,可是不知道他们会买到几时啊,要是没再买了怎么办?悲哀。。。。。之前曾经买过《步步惊心》的小说,很喜欢。也买过《最美的时光》可是没想到会有电视剧出来,都是电视剧的原创小说呢。所以这次我好想要《兰陵王》的!我还看到Popular有卖《大漠谣》呢,听说也有电视剧版,所以有点想买。。。我简直疯了啦。。。。。。。

继续活下去

生活在艰难在不开心,也要活下去,你的梦想就是你要活下去的理由,像我的话,我想去旅行,飞去台湾,香港,英国,日本,韩国,荷兰,还有好多好多国家啊,这些梦想要完成的话,你就要好好活下去,死了就不可能完成啦。所以到不如好好活着,不然就会留下遗憾的。还有要趁年轻的时候,能做多少喜欢的事情,就做多少,不要等到老了才完成,因为你永远也不知道自己能活多久,谁知道哪一天世界末日在我们不知道的情况下发生了,我们就再也没机会完成我们的梦想。还有你也不知道等老了,你还会有那个能力去完成你想完成的梦想吗?生了重病?瘫痪了?所以珍惜时间。。。

有没有遇到一个让你讨厌的网友

就是有那么一个网友一直缠着我,他真的是问太多问题了,有些私人问题他也要问,真的有点讨人厌,我只是没回复他,他就一直问你是不是很忙,一直问一直问,我说忙私事,他就问我什么私事。都说是私事了,当然就不会跟你说啦,如果我想跟你说,我就直接跟你说实情了,还会说是时私事吗?

拜托我有需要跟你说那么多吗。一开始跟我聊天,就问一大堆问题,连我住哪都要问,如果跟他说,说不定哪一天,他突然跑来我家,我不就惨了!这些是我的隐私啊!他还曾经说过要来我家拜年呢,拜托我跟你是网友而已啊,又不是真实的朋友,谁说你可以来我家了!现在有越来越多骗子,有些人还是要提防的。

而且他在Central念书,而我在West念书,我们是两间不同分校,随时都有可能因为学校的关系,而去对方的学校,我怕哪一天会在他的学校遇到他,也怕哪一天他来我学校,然后遇到我,所以不敢惹他。只好一直敷衍他,有时他跟我说嗨,我都没回复,除非他一直私信我。我连回复都不想回复啊。。。有几次他还想跟我见面,真糟,我之前去他的学校看表演,都很担心会遇到他,或许学校很大,不容易遇到,但是还是小心点比较好,庆幸我没有进这间学校啊。。。。。。

之前收到很多facebook的网友传给我的一大堆垃圾私信,真糟糕,还有问密码的。。。

至少在微博还没遇过。。。在微博也有一些能聊聊天的网友,还不错。

乖乖诗韵

我爱画画,也爱拍照。。。